where is my lucky star

where is my lucky star?

Wandering from place to place an obsession crept into mind: by finding my lucky star. These questions asked to a passing bird, to the flower buds, to the falling leaves, and even to the rainbow in the sky.

Searching... from fallin' darkness, till the breaking of dawn, through the waves of the sea, through the thickness of clouds.

I keep on waiting... waiting.... till the would would whispher: Here-is your destiny where lies your lucky star.

Nothing... until one night, I dream
talking to a young gentleman in broad daylight a strange but melodious sound hovered above me, without turning, I knew from my very heart it came just for me... because... on the ground there cast the glittering shadow of a STAR, big, bright star! without preamble the man caught it for me. Perflexed, I cried and said, please let it go! release it!

Beads of perspiration awaken me. I fervently prayed: Lord God, please forgive me. I'm sorry for questioning your power beyond doubts. From now on, I will lay my future into your hands. I promise not to ask nor question again... where...where is this destiny were lies my lucky star

The sun shines brightly as promised by its shimmering light. Clad in my casual wear and old worn brown shoes, headed downtown to find a job...that day, for me finding a job is quiet frightening because there are many factors to consider:
a. a fresh graduate
b. married
c. above 30 years
d. money in pocket just enough for fare and "merienda"

"Good Morning Ma'am" the guard said from a famous private office. "Good Morning", I replied. May I know where's the office of the manager? The guard showed me to the Manager's office. Sat infront the manager's table, he started browsing over my papers...and nod. After a 15 minute interview, finally, he said: Uhum...your course is quiet in demand in the field of communication but am sorry we only accept applicants who are 25 years below and single... I smiled and curtly I replied: thank you sir for your time... have a nice day!

Rushed from the main door of that building, called for a tricycle...As I sat inside, tears keep flowing...i can't really control them. I was so very very upset. I blamed myself for marrying at a very young age and finished my college in my early 30's.At home, strength regained and calmed down. Was able to regain my wits and selflessness. I said to myself: Lady, this is not the end of the world yet. I know someday there's a fine job store for you.